my computer once again stopped working. We brought it in for the third time and I was feeling pretty bummed out about it but we left the Apple Store with the promise of one of their brand new iMacs. They released a refresh on them just today. Its thinner then my current one with less glair. It will also have a faster CPU and GPU. They even threw in a free data transfer. So I left the store feeling a little less bummed and in a few days I will be blogging from a fancy new computer. I am feeling pretty lucky and Apple has a customer for life!
The Famous Oak Tree In Athens That Owns Itself (by GeorgiaFarmMonitor)
There is neither happiness nor misery in the world; there is only the comparison of one state with another, nothing more. He who has felt the deepest grief is best able to experience supreme happiness. We must of felt what it is to die, Morrel, that we may appreciate the enjoyments of life.
" Live, then, and be happy, beloved children of my heart, and never forget, that until the day God will deign to reveal the future to man, all human wisdom is contained in these two words, ‘Wait and Hope."
This blog is so helpful to me because to see it so exactly described by another person, makes me feel like I am not a freak, all alone out there inventing the illness.
I have been going through a bit of a low again because the death of a parent and turmoil from careless people. I felt like a failure because I had fallen into a bout of depression again after two years of improving my physical and mental health.
I think I kind of had to go through this second bout of depression to help me realize this all started with me putting pressure on my self to be perfect and feeling like I have conquered depression for good was heading down that same self pressuring road.
I will always have ups and downs because of the illness. Careless people can so easily trigger sadness if I am not careful about filtering who I let into my inner circle. I now have the tools to combat it and I know what helps me feel confident.
I realize that I need to give my self time to heal from tragedies.I must be honest with my self about my feelings. I must keep moving forward towards my goals. Continue to pursue things that help me feel good like healthy food and exercise. I must acknowledge I am what I am and that is ok. I just have to work harder at things. I have a good work ethic.
When I first saw the coverage of the article appear on Jezebel saying that exercise doesn’t help depression, I didn’t believe it. I read the press …
When I saw the article on my Tumblr feed stating that “Exercise does not lift depression" I did a double take.
I have seen a lot of ridiculous articles telling the masses to stay calm and carry on with their unhealthy habits. I had to find a rebuttal to this article and found this one I linked above. I also wanted to talk about my own personal experiences with depression and exercise.
Exercise has helped me greatly. The people selected for this study had recently been diagnosed with depression. Some were on antidepressants and others were not.
Honestly when I first had my crash there was no way exercise could have helped me. I was doing so badly I wasn’t able to leave my bed for months at a time. I was insanely paranoid about people entering my space and had to leave even my bedroom doors shut. When I went outside I couldn’t even feel the sun on my skin.
My first experiences with antidepressants was not very pleasant. When I first started taking them I was over prescribed. The medication left me drooling occasionally. My arms were clenched up to my sides. My body was rock solid with tension and I was shaking contently. A new doctor and new medication at the right dose left me in better shape but it took a lot of experimentation with different types of medication in order to find one that didn’t have adverse side affects.
Even after finding a medication that seemed to be doing its job I was almost in a sedated state where I could not feel really happy or sad. I still had a underlying rage underneath it all that I could not get out. It was like the medication had sealed me in a plastic case and nothing could get out or in. After a suicide attempt I gave up on medication. ( I am not suggesting this to anyone this is just my personal story.) I felt like I wasn’t even myself any longer. I had no self preservation taking risks I would not normally take. I would say things I would not normally say. I felt crazy all the time.
The steps I took after dropping my medications were to find my spiritual connection, change my eating habits and start exercising. I dove into P90X. It was really really really hard to get up and do the workouts and I honestly had fits the first month where I just would cry and not do them that day. I finally had to make a video of myself after a work out telling myself how much better it made me feel and to just stick with it. I have completed the program twice. Though I have taken some time off from lifting weights and P90X in recent months I still hike almost every weekend and take walks around the block almost daily.
My mood is drastically better when I finish a workout. I feel the best after an outdoor excursion because the fresh air and light really help sweep away any dark nasty mood I have. Finishing P90X gave me such self confidence. I lost over 50 pounds and felt better then I did at 17. Yoga not only helps my mood but helps me get in touch with my spirituality. It helps me get out those angry sad feelings I often get trapped inside of me because of years of hiding my true feelings.
Looking good and being able to state my accomplishments helps my depression so much. I feel angry when I see articles like this because they just make people who feel lost feel even more hopeless. I am not a scientist, I do not have a team of scientists working for me but I promise that if a person just fights every day to accomplish their fitness and health goals they will feel better. Setting goals builds self esteem and helps a person rise up out of the darkness. Exercise does increase the “feel good" chemicals in the body and can really help. It helps you stay healthy and gets rid of aches and pains that can bring you down.
I felt it was really important for me to respond to this article so people did not read it and throw in the towel. Keep fighting the good fight and keep exercising!
And now for a little nerdy moment. My mage Toad makes flying monkeys and bears and it makes me happy. Haha!
This isn’t a post I want to write, but it’s a post I need to write because I know it can help someone. I’ll try to keep the details about me to a minimum, but I’m about to get all personal.
First, you need to know that I’m extremely introverted and I smile a lot. If I have a problem I like to…
This is a fantastic read. I have also done the mood cure and swear by it. I went through an extremely difficult winter and spring that included the death of a parent. I was able to cope with the difficult emotions.
I am only taking fish oil now and eating very healthy. I avoid the top five “bad mood foods.” White Flour/ Sugar, grains soy and alcohol. Only an occasional non primal food and I make sure those treats are made with real ingredients.
If you are having a hard time with depression this article and the book The Mood Cure might really help you out. It never hurts to take a look at what you are eating and ask if it is good for you and giving you everything you need.
I found this article very informative. I know some of my readers are coping with these things and thought it might help them as well.